Today marks exactly one year since my best friend passed over the rainbow bridge. I thought today would be a good time to give an update on how things have been over here in my world. I’m going to be completely honest and open with my feelings because there will come a time if it hasn’t already that you too may experience loss such as mine. The first five months were pure heartache and felt torturous. A sense of shock and anger consumed me. I cried every day throughout the day. I couldn’t enjoy anything. I had little motivation to do anything, no direction, no purpose and couldn’t even enjoy the company of my loved ones. My heart was feeling lonely, broken and empty. I just wanted to see my boy again and a year later I still do.

I tried many things to help me get through the grieving process, but what helped me the most was you, being present here with my social media family (my instafamily). I genuinely love and appreciate each and every single one of you who take time out of your busy days to comment, comfort me and send your warm words of comfort during what was the worst time of my life. It may sound a bit dramatic but it really was a devastating loss. I don’t know if I can quite explain it. I do know there are others who have lost heart dogs who can relate to my pain. Your support did and continues to mean the world to me, something I will cherish forever. His life may have been short, but damn was it sweet!

To everyone who’s hurting and grieving like I did and still do, I just wanted to say it does get better. I’m doing better than I was a year ago. The pain still comes in waves but not nearly as strong or as often as it once did. Having Archie by my side really helped fill that empty space in my heart. Scout’s loss has forever changed me, but the life we had together and the memories we made will be with me forever. We heal slowly and learn to function again, but we simply can’t forget, nor should we want to. Every time I drive by his favorite places or visit them with Archie, I will think back on all the wonderful times we had. I will still share his story, honor him and speak about him often. His legacy will never be forgotten.

October 2014 – August 2, 2021 🌈

If you’ve lost a heart dog, I’d love to honor them as well in today’s post. Please share their names and a favorite memory or two.